"We are joy, before, during, and after the thoughts that tell us we are not." ~ Amy Sperry Faldet
Part of understanding your faerytale is taking the reigns, looking at the horizon, recognizing the mountains you must climb and taking the steps towards, well, towards it all... but none of that would happen or even manifest in your mind if you forget that you are on this perfect journey, before, during, and after the thoughts that tell you you are not. We are choosing every moment, yes, but, we are just perfect during it all, we just forget. I forget.
The pictures above are just a couple with my kids at one of those booths that sketch you while you are sitting there and a picture of myself on a hayride with my kids. (By the way, thanks Vanessa Valencia for that inspiration!) I am in love with the giggly way we get in those booths. We didn't care about how we looked we just were perfect because we were about to burst with joy, courage, and giddyness! My New Year's resolution is to embrace that feeling and channel the thoughts that encourage perfect joy. I would like them at my side sitting on my art desk to dip my fingers in when doubt comes to call. I tell my children these quotes of mine; I believe them, they are mine after all, (....a hee hee moment, sorry laughing at myself, a common past time.) But, I want to live it, breathe it, know it like a friend in a faerytale, loyal, on the path with me. I am re-reading A Circle of Quiet by Madeleine L'Engle, it is my favorite book, really, just seems to always be all I need at different times of my life and it is like it changes as I change... I have re-read books and not felt so engaged in them as I was when 20 or 30, etc. but this book is ageless and strangely age-appropos at the same time for me. hmmm... I digress... Anyway, I needed a circle of quiet, spiritually, this week for I am envisioning my journey led by the heart. It is a journey that needs me to be true, fearless, kind, patient in my art and sending my light out into the world to shine sweetly on people when they need a circle of quiet. I know the thoughts that say, your little art doesn't shed such light as this of which you dream. I know those thoughts... but those thoughts are not the thoughts I encourage. Those thoughts are not the thoughts that accompany me and my little boys as we raucously jump into the sketch machine booth with sparkles and mischief in our eyes! So, those thoughts will stay home with the hobbits that are long of face and with eyes laced with suspicious crinkles at the corners. They are not coming on my journey of light. For, I am perfect before, during, and after the thoughts that tell me I am not.
The world is a place of uncertainty, but, I remember this quote by L'Engle
"Our truest response to the irrationality of the world is to paint or write or sing, for only in such response do we find truth." ~Madeleine l'Engle